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Time, relationships, vulnerability

 Time is a weird thing. It comes and goes, time doesn't stop because life gets hard, it moves on with or without you so at the end of the day I've learned it's best to try and move wirh it. That's not to say however sometimes it doesn't feel like life stops all together... Time is interesting the way it passes especially when you spend long periods of said time with another person. Marriage is a gift, I truly believe that and unfortunately it is abused in this day in age, people don't take the commitment seriously or they enter into said commitment not remotely ready to commit at all. I haven't been very public about my life the last few months, for a few weeks in December time did seemingly stop for me. My very soon ex husband left a week before Christmas and honestly I thought the world stopped turning. I questioned love, I questioned relationships, I questioned time, the way time works and why I spent such a chunk of my life on someone who could just leave me that easy. I'm sure your wondering why I'm sharing this now, well on the other side almost finished with one of the hardest situations of my life, I know love exists again and I know that there is more to this life then the actiosn of another person. I know my worth and I know that God has a plan amidst all this. It has become an opportunity to find real love, a love I wouldn't have found without all that has transpired. Its become an opportunity to reinvent myself and figure out who I truly want to be. I want to write this tonight as encouragement to anyone struggling, there is more to this life even if you feel as if the world has stopped all together. Even if you struggle to get out of bed due to what your facing in life, there is more. Your situation does not define you. This situation is not the end, once you begin to see it as a new beginning, trust me it will lose its toxic power over you. 

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