It's a very rare occasion that I make myself completely vulnerable in my writing, lately I think I'd even go as far to say that I've been afraid to be vulnerable because I've been afraid to fully embrace myself. In all honesty I haven't wrote a lot lately wondering what my thoughts were lacking, and it's come to my attention the very thing I've been afraid of is exactly what was needed. Tonight I wrote something and a very dear friend of mine inspired me to share it with all of you. For that I am beyond thankful. Sometimes we need to emerge from our comfort zones to see any true growth. So here goes a jump or perhaps a leap, not of fear but of faith.
Sometimes you find yourself thinking about literally everything. Your not sure what triggers it, you might even think something is wrong with you, I know sometimes I do. But your brain just comes on like a light bulb, one that won't go out, and your mind, it flows like an endless, vast ocean to literally everything, every possibility , every scenario, every worry, every hope. My mind does this a lot and sometimes I can't even explain it. Sometimes it scares me and other times I get my best analysis from these times. At these times I don't think about minuscule things, I think about much deeper topics. Topics that concern me, things that I hope for, maybe even things I yearn for. I think about love a lot. Love is such a vast topic that I don't believe our human minds can ever understand or comprehend it completely. Love is in our genes, we were created on a basis of love before we were even formed in our mothers womb. We spend our entire lives sometimes, or a good portion of them looking for love, wanting to be loved in a way we feel adequate, a way we feel satisfactory to our senses, a way that is understandable and complementary to our field of knowledge. It's a wonder yet it's also practical that we search for this, due to the fact we have all known and can all know again a love far greater than earthly understanding, senses , and comprehension. It's a miraculous thought that before our mothers, our parents even thought of us. The Lord had every feature of our being planned out down to the very last hair on our heads. Before we were even biologically formed, we were loved with a love so great, so powerful, so freeing, perfect, and unselfish. We sinners were and still are loved with a perfect love. Maybe by this love being engrained in us, is why we search for love here on earth, maybe its also why earthly perfect love doesn't exist. Because we've already experienced te most perfect love, nothing else can compare. I mean have you ever noticed, even the most "perfect loves" are imperfect? That is quite possibly because the only perfect love is that from the Lord, and even though no earthy love can compare to his, he still wants us to experience it. It's been engraved on our hearts as Christians to not only search for love, but to be love, to love the "unloveable", to protect those who have hurt us, to love and bring joy despite our own circumstances.
We think our lives should be perfect, clean, orderly; but if we truly follow Jesus's footsteps like we claim to want to, then truly our lives should be none of that. Jesus went his whole life living in persecution and disorder, he was even hated for no reason. But the hearts he led to the truth, the smiles he caused, and the love he gave and would continue to give made it all worth it to him. To him it was worth sacrificing his only son. That unfathomable statement should cause us to step out of our comfort zones and live on the edge, not for our happiness, but for the joy of the Lord and for the joy of others. I'm not saying we shouldn't take care of ourselves, but by taking care of others, we truly are taking care of ourselves. We need to not run from challenges but run towards them. We need to see the heart behind people and not just the surface of their circumstances or the attitude they put forth. We need to pray for eyes like the Lord, maybe then we can stop hating and start loving, stop kicking and start helping, stop wishing and start doing. We need to pray for strength to walk out and live out the will of the Lord. For from the word of the Lord we know it won't be easy, but it will be worth it. Saving souls, saving people is worth it.
Knowing the greatest love possible plants an eagerness inside of us to chase after love that may seem impossible. Maybe that person that everyone said is a lost cause, but we can see deeper so we chase them. And knowing the great love we do, we can chase them with endurance and persistence, we can be the ones to not give up. We can be the ones to love them like we have been loved. This love we know perhaps causes us to chase a love that everyone says won't work, that everyone doubts, but that we know is pure and true, good and real. We know this because have an example of pure love from our living God in heaven and that "impossible" love we have managed to find here is the closest resemblance we've found to the most real and true love we know. Maybe we have to find an impossible love on earth, a miracle love, because the love we have been given by God is such a miracle that our earthly love must be too in order to even begin to scratch the surface in comparison.
Sometimes you find yourself thinking about literally everything. Your not sure what triggers it, you might even think something is wrong with you, I know sometimes I do. But your brain just comes on like a light bulb, one that won't go out, and your mind, it flows like an endless, vast ocean to literally everything, every possibility , every scenario, every worry, every hope. My mind does this a lot and sometimes I can't even explain it. Sometimes it scares me and other times I get my best analysis from these times. At these times I don't think about minuscule things, I think about much deeper topics. Topics that concern me, things that I hope for, maybe even things I yearn for. I think about love a lot. Love is such a vast topic that I don't believe our human minds can ever understand or comprehend it completely. Love is in our genes, we were created on a basis of love before we were even formed in our mothers womb. We spend our entire lives sometimes, or a good portion of them looking for love, wanting to be loved in a way we feel adequate, a way we feel satisfactory to our senses, a way that is understandable and complementary to our field of knowledge. It's a wonder yet it's also practical that we search for this, due to the fact we have all known and can all know again a love far greater than earthly understanding, senses , and comprehension. It's a miraculous thought that before our mothers, our parents even thought of us. The Lord had every feature of our being planned out down to the very last hair on our heads. Before we were even biologically formed, we were loved with a love so great, so powerful, so freeing, perfect, and unselfish. We sinners were and still are loved with a perfect love. Maybe by this love being engrained in us, is why we search for love here on earth, maybe its also why earthly perfect love doesn't exist. Because we've already experienced te most perfect love, nothing else can compare. I mean have you ever noticed, even the most "perfect loves" are imperfect? That is quite possibly because the only perfect love is that from the Lord, and even though no earthy love can compare to his, he still wants us to experience it. It's been engraved on our hearts as Christians to not only search for love, but to be love, to love the "unloveable", to protect those who have hurt us, to love and bring joy despite our own circumstances.
We think our lives should be perfect, clean, orderly; but if we truly follow Jesus's footsteps like we claim to want to, then truly our lives should be none of that. Jesus went his whole life living in persecution and disorder, he was even hated for no reason. But the hearts he led to the truth, the smiles he caused, and the love he gave and would continue to give made it all worth it to him. To him it was worth sacrificing his only son. That unfathomable statement should cause us to step out of our comfort zones and live on the edge, not for our happiness, but for the joy of the Lord and for the joy of others. I'm not saying we shouldn't take care of ourselves, but by taking care of others, we truly are taking care of ourselves. We need to not run from challenges but run towards them. We need to see the heart behind people and not just the surface of their circumstances or the attitude they put forth. We need to pray for eyes like the Lord, maybe then we can stop hating and start loving, stop kicking and start helping, stop wishing and start doing. We need to pray for strength to walk out and live out the will of the Lord. For from the word of the Lord we know it won't be easy, but it will be worth it. Saving souls, saving people is worth it.
Knowing the greatest love possible plants an eagerness inside of us to chase after love that may seem impossible. Maybe that person that everyone said is a lost cause, but we can see deeper so we chase them. And knowing the great love we do, we can chase them with endurance and persistence, we can be the ones to not give up. We can be the ones to love them like we have been loved. This love we know perhaps causes us to chase a love that everyone says won't work, that everyone doubts, but that we know is pure and true, good and real. We know this because have an example of pure love from our living God in heaven and that "impossible" love we have managed to find here is the closest resemblance we've found to the most real and true love we know. Maybe we have to find an impossible love on earth, a miracle love, because the love we have been given by God is such a miracle that our earthly love must be too in order to even begin to scratch the surface in comparison.
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