Life Trials -God's Got You

 Normally I have some cute or poetic intro to my blog posts. Today is just simply no such day. It is an ordinary yet inordinary day, my kids are napping and while I felt the urge to try to rush through chores, the Lord put it on my heart to pause and write this so here we are. For those who know me personally you likely know the rough season my family and I have been going through. When I say nothing else could possibly go sideways or wrong I am not exagerating. That being said I am not writing this to complain or divulge the details of my families personal life, but rather to praise the one to whom praise is do and hopefully encourage others also going through a tough season. The last 5 weeks of our lives have been mostly downs, my car got stolen, our family is transitioning to move and my husband is transitioning jobs. Add in jobs not wanting to send paychecks, toddlers, the cost of living etc. etc and you've basically got  a recipe for disaster and if I am being honest I have spent  a lot of time questioning where on earth God is in all this. Where is the God who is provider and sustainer and ever faithful, well long story short he has been there all along. He was there in the many friends who stepped up and encouraged me when I was breaking and felt I had nothing left. He was there in the forgiveness my kids gave me when I yelled  not because of them but because of the storm inside me. He was there when I didn't know how we would purchase groceries and someone offered to help, he was there when our apartment has been so gracious with us regarding rent. He was there when our car was counted a total loss and insurance said they would pay off almost the entire loan. He was there when we couldn't qualify on financing anywhere for a new car and I felt any autonomy I had slip away, he was there when the next day we found a car barely out of budget and we were able to aqquire the funds for a vehicle that better meets our family needs then my car had. He was there when i cried about using our savings and buffer on a vehicle when money still hasn't come through. He was there through my anger and my uncertainty and he never left. When I couldn't see him or feel him or barely had the strength to believe he was still there. He was there when I was sure nothing would come through for us and he told my husband to check an old investment which unbeknown to us should carry us through until our transition season evens out. I want to encourage you today that even on your worst day, the day your certain your world is ending and God is nowhere near, he is and he is fighting for you! A sweet friend has been reminding me that God uses struggle to shape us, he uses external pressure to make internal differences and that is so true. God is good and faithful always even when we can't see it, If your waiting don't stop believing, don't stop praying. My season of waiting was about 5 weeks and still isn't fully over. Maybe yours is shorter, maybe it's longer but sweet friend look up to heaven. Turn toward the one who loves you and holds you always, look for his encouragement. Maybe its your toddler saying they love you or maybe its a needed text from a friend, maybe its 5 minutes alone to breathe. Just know he's got you, he loves you and he has a plan whether it feels like it or not. I'll leave you with this, I saw  something today that said in the bible God told them to be strong and courageous not to feel it, to be it. He knew we would not always feel these things but thankfully faith is greater then a feeling, Our feelings change but he doesn't our faith doesn't need to flee as feelings do, our fear needs to flee in the name of Jesus as we hold strong to him. I pray this reaches whoever needs it today, God bless.